I need You to Love Me .

Been lacking of sleep lately . I keep yawning during lessons and maybe I already dislocated my jaw . Oh well . Anyway, 1E4 got back their report books back . Let's just see that I flunk my maths and got average for other subjects but still get the first in class along with Lee Fang . I felt like I was taking someone else's place and therefore, didn't feel that the first position belonged to me . But there's no use denying now . Since it's already settled and printed on the paper .

Okay, lessons were typical and after school, there was ELDDS . We had a new instructor, since the old one was called out of her company and I think that the new instructor is really nice ! The things that she called us to do, even if it requires maximum level of energy, everyone had a whale of a time . I'm sure, this might make a difference in the number of students coming to the session every Thursday . :) I'm moodswinging and this time, I'm feeling really grateful for no reason at all . -.- So yeah, would like to take this chance to thank all my friends ( you know yourselves ) for supporting me, making me laugh and letting me enjoy life in school . I'm really damn grateful to have met you guys . :D

Weird, right ? Moodswinging and ended up feeling grateful . Oh yeah, Miss Claudia was talking to us about this study group after school every Monday, Wednesday & Friday for some pupils and she asked if anyone was interested . Automatically, I found myself interested, the reasons were that I flunk my maths and realised that I slack alot for maths this year, so I went to raise my hand, at the same time as Amarpreet and Glenys . So yes, there hands were up at the same time and we looked at each other and giggled under our breath . So ended up, teacher said that she wanted me to only attend one of the days since I'll be busy with ELDDS and also that I only needed aid in Maths . At least I'm in and I'm going to study Maths for at least once a week ! That's definitely a record !

Oh, I suddenly remember ! Miss Claudia also changed a little of the seating arrangment after she called us to push the tables together . So Debra and me were together at first and we were both happy to be each other's company when Miss Claudia decided to swap Debra with Yang Zhen . Not that I don't like this new "arrangment" but it makes me feel a little sad hearing Glenys "mourning" over Debra new "arrangment" . The good thing is that, maybe she's going to enjoy it . So yeah, I'll be happy .

Since I'm feeling grateful today, I'll continue the blog entry with a quiz which Eme called me to do . ^^

YOURSELF

1. Name ?
- Jacintha Yap Jing Yi

2. DOB ?
- 30th June 1993 .

3. E-Mail ?
- unwoken_peace@hotmail.com

4. What do you love about yourself ?
- A good listener/ advisor .

5. Do you find that you're pampered?
- Maybe, maybe not .

6. Do you love yourself?
- Sometimes .

7. Are you a Gothic, Emo or punk girl in the inside?
- It depends . Maybe Emo, since I have tons of moments when I went totally emotional .

8. Are you a Gothic, Emo or Punk girl in the outside?
- Not sure . Maybe both, but at different times ? :P


LOVE

1. Have you got rejected by someone you love before?
- Guess so .

2. Have you rejected someone that loves you?
- Yeah .

3. Have you got dumped before?
- No .

4. What type of guys do you like?
- Quiet, mysterious, surprising, willing to take risks, understanding and a little playful .

5. Are you a Bi-Sexual?
- No . -.-

6. At which part of time do you really want to have your boyfriend at your side?
- When I'm sitting on the sand, facing the ocean and watching the sun set .

7. Where do you want to be most of the times when you're with your guy?
- Anywhere, as long as it's with him, I guess it doesn't really matters .

8. When you're alone in the dark isolated street and couldnt get through your guy, what would you do to make you feel better?
- Thinking about our good times . :)

9. Where would you want your first kiss to be at?
- I don't really care about the place .

10. Would you want your boyfriend to be really processed with you?
- Maybe not .

11. If one day you realised, your boyfriend has a terminal disease that cannot be cured already, what would you do?
- I'll spend all the remaining days with him, if possible, give him some "light" during the remaining days and stay back his side . Because he resides forever in my heart .

12. Do you like it when your boyfriend keep something from you?
- It depends . Everybody has a secret to keep .


DEPRESS

1. Do you hurt yourself when you're really depress?
- Yeah, my emotions, my confidence and my hands. Because I hit my fist repeatedly on the table when I'm that depressed .

2. When is the time, you broke down really hard ? List down.
- When my grandfather died & when I found that making him to return the feeling was impossible .

3. What do you do to calm yourself down when you're really sad?
- Draw .

4. What would you think of when you're sad?
- That my torchlight in life has just run out of batteries and soon if I find it, everything would be bright again .

5. Who is that one that disappointed you again and again?
- Him . Some people .

6. Do you stopped crying after someone consoled you and compliment you ?
- Guess so, I don't want to a burden to that person .

7. Are you shy when crying infront of a group of people?
- No .

8. Has anyone made you cried in your current school?
- Yeah .

9. Do you get hurt really easily?
- Yeah .

10. Do you get over with your hurt easily?
- Maybe not .


ANGRY

1. Do you get provoked very easily?
- Sometimes .

2. What do you do when you got provoked?
- Keep quiet to calm myself down .

3. Are you violent when you're angry?
- Sometimes .

4. Have you hurt physically when you're angry?
- I hit my fist repeatedly on the table or any surface, so yeah .

5. Whats the thing you can never Tolerate?
- Rejection, missing someone, liking someone you find it's impossible to like back, the death of someone you loved truly, feeling worthless & other stuff .

6. What would you do to vent your anger?
- Hit my fist repeatedly on the table, draw, sing / just lie down on the bed and think things through .

Now im giving it to : Anyone who's interested. Lazy to search for names and list them down . ^^;

Well then, I doubt there's anything to blog about, so yeah, Sayonara and thanks for reading ! :D