Jealousy
Currently Feeling: Jealous
Currently Listening To: I Wanna Be Bad - Willa Ford
Okay,i just heard from my teacher that my overall chinese passed. w00t ! :D Anyway,i'm not so sure. It seems like i've been really giddy these days and my visions are blurring because of the lack of sleep. Ohwell. It's typical,but the thing that is confusing me is that i'm always hearing a voice inside me whenever something like that happens. Something that says "Don't trust those who calls themselves your friends".
During art lesson,he was sitting wih a group of my friends,not that i want to insult them but then all of a sudden i was thinking "As if they don't know i like him" and well the whole Jealousy thing started. He was busy teasing,playing afool and maybe a lil' bit of flirting,actually,i don't know and initially, i didn't care since i was busy writting an essay for my form teacher. When their laughter and noise started to increased,i turned and looked. Defeated with jealousy,i just turned my back and then resumed with my work. The voice inside me kept asking me if that betrayer was right. She showed me the look that i've mixed with the wrong friends,and i wonder if she's correct or am i just faking it?
She used to be my best friend... that betrayer but now things changed. Right now my new group of best friends are kinda like gathering with him when he's the only boy. I never thought he would do that. If he cares about me,he wouldn't and would never want to make me feel that way. I've been really cross these few days because of some mistakes that i can never forgive myself of but me being mad at my best friends because of jealousy,i'm just being a lousy friend. So without any regrets,i just went on and when he approached me about something,i just shrugged and walked away. At first,i felt a pain passing by me as i looked at myself walking a distance away from him,but then i told myself that i wouldn't let anybody even my siblings to take advantage of me. Just because i look sweet doesn't means i'm all that.
It's a good thing that Shark Boy & Lava girl managed to cheer me up. Even if they're imaginary,they just managed to spark me up. I've just drew a picture of a picture,maybe like shooting larva,but it doesn't looks like. -sighs- An artist's job is never done. Anyway,life is like this,i just gonna face the fact or just leave it. Friends are the ones who stand by your side when you are really in pain and i want to say Sorry for accusing you all. You all are just .. being.. ...
Currently Listening To: I Wanna Be Bad - Willa Ford
Okay,i just heard from my teacher that my overall chinese passed. w00t ! :D Anyway,i'm not so sure. It seems like i've been really giddy these days and my visions are blurring because of the lack of sleep. Ohwell. It's typical,but the thing that is confusing me is that i'm always hearing a voice inside me whenever something like that happens. Something that says "Don't trust those who calls themselves your friends".
During art lesson,he was sitting wih a group of my friends,not that i want to insult them but then all of a sudden i was thinking "As if they don't know i like him" and well the whole Jealousy thing started. He was busy teasing,playing afool and maybe a lil' bit of flirting,actually,i don't know and initially, i didn't care since i was busy writting an essay for my form teacher. When their laughter and noise started to increased,i turned and looked. Defeated with jealousy,i just turned my back and then resumed with my work. The voice inside me kept asking me if that betrayer was right. She showed me the look that i've mixed with the wrong friends,and i wonder if she's correct or am i just faking it?
She used to be my best friend... that betrayer but now things changed. Right now my new group of best friends are kinda like gathering with him when he's the only boy. I never thought he would do that. If he cares about me,he wouldn't and would never want to make me feel that way. I've been really cross these few days because of some mistakes that i can never forgive myself of but me being mad at my best friends because of jealousy,i'm just being a lousy friend. So without any regrets,i just went on and when he approached me about something,i just shrugged and walked away. At first,i felt a pain passing by me as i looked at myself walking a distance away from him,but then i told myself that i wouldn't let anybody even my siblings to take advantage of me. Just because i look sweet doesn't means i'm all that.
It's a good thing that Shark Boy & Lava girl managed to cheer me up. Even if they're imaginary,they just managed to spark me up. I've just drew a picture of a picture,maybe like shooting larva,but it doesn't looks like. -sighs- An artist's job is never done. Anyway,life is like this,i just gonna face the fact or just leave it. Friends are the ones who stand by your side when you are really in pain and i want to say Sorry for accusing you all. You all are just .. being.. ...
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