Beautiful Soul

Currently Feeling: Braindead. x_x;
Currently Listening To : Beautiful Soul - Jesse McCartney

Today has been a stressful day followed by some unexpected things. Well,i was feeing rather downcast of the attention i recieved from him but there was times when we just gave each other cold stares but the amount is decreasing. What i always thought about most of the malay girls is that they are flirty but what i didn't know that they were actually real nice.

The group of malay girls i happened to sit with during sup. lessons is real nice and i appreciated that. Haha. I guess i'm wrong and it turns out that the 'fight' or maybe quarrel that me,my best friend and my another friend have is something so unreasonable that i don't think i want to apologise. She just tries to be sarcastic and starts giving us a cold shoulde when we did not always hang out with our clique members and we hang out with new friends. I thought she understood but she didn't. She was always the one giving inspirational quotes and right now i feel like asking her if she ever heard of 'Always make new friends and keep the old ones',we doing that and yet she thinks that we're doing another thing. She always thinks she's correct which defeats the purpose of friendship. She also leave the clique alone and when to join the other girls and yet we all shut up and didn't complain,she doesn't have the right to do so especially when she's one of those trendsetting types of person. I used to look up on her but right now,everything seems the opposite. I promise that i'll never cry because of this and i'll rather cry because of something more worth it which i did cried for. Friendship is by giving of the heart,i gave her my heart and she doesn't repay me back. What the..?

Anyway,i wouldn't want to talk and blabber about this. It's putting me on my nerves. Recalling the day i started liking him was on late Feburary and i liked him twice which is unbelievable to some folks out there. RGS is holding their open-house and i really badly want to go,it's a fanstatic school with lots of facilities and they even teach us how to code a website/blog which i seriously need to know so i wouldn't always be online. My aim right now is RGS or Anderson Secondary but if i pass,i'll be happy,it'll be good if i get a high pass. I'm trying my best and putting in my best effort in every worksheet i have and i hope that these problems don't interrupt or block my way because it's a waste of time. No use pitying her and no use making us feel bad,i already said that i won't apologise,i will only do that when i'm in the wrong and i even called for her name and asked her calmly if she needed the umbrella and she replied with a cold voice..

Let's just hope that when she quits the clique,she will at least still keep her lips sealed. I trusted her before and i've been with her for the longest period,i know lots about her and in her letter before,she said she wanted to be friends with me badly and yet she creates trouble to make our friendship rocky. Rocky friendship doesn't always leads to hapiness,that's what i can conclude. A friend always helps one another and instead of creating trouble,a friend helps to solve a problem. I'm glad that she has friends that she can rely on and friends she can hang out and gossip with. She can backstabb me all she want because i believe everyone's a backstabber. God bless her. She has been a good friend and been with me through thick and thin.

I promise that i'll forgive her if she going to apologise and promises are meant to be broken and so are hearts. =)