Hiding Everywhere

Mood: Scared & Great

Currently Listening To : Where Is The Love - Black Eyed Peas

Yes ! I finished with my maths practice paper,meaning i left with the June MMAT. =] Anyway,im trying to understand what love is all about. Initally,i thought it was something that grows but it wasn't. If you don't take tender care of it just like friendship,it will wither eventually. But i don't care anymore,i just feel great after finishing one of my tests,well i have more than 5 tests just like all Primary Six in my school which i simply am glad that i managed to finish. I just don't know why i feel so obstinate,i even cried when i can't solve a question,thinking that its the end of life but with the help of my sister,i managed to work it out.

Im excited and kinda afraid to go back to school possibly is because i miss my crush but i don't really think thats the main reason of me being excited,maybe its because of meeting my friends back. I missed them loads and i haven't even given them a ring for a while. Well,no matter,im just really excited to see my friends again. About him,hrm,maybe not much of excitment to looking at him again. Hopefully,he doesn't get a haircut because he loooks really ugly but i can't judge a book by its cover. Like what i said inmy last entry,he have minor flaws but i just have to forgive him for that and sometimes i wonder why i care for him and even ask him is he okay when he doesn't even ask me a single question concering my mood. Even the time when i cried when i flunk my chinese,his reaction was just plain. Well,yet again,i can't read his mind so i can't justify my answer. ;] Haha. Im just glad that things work out after some interruptions in our friendship but sticking as friends is better. Crushes are just plain old dumb. Puppylove,they call. I might have liked him once better when i was 11 but my likings for him isn't even close to love. Its just far. Nobody is close to perfect. Nobody,even if i think he is.

Today's been great,even if my compute time was cut short due to the amount of homework i have but im glad that im able to finish it up. Life can be really tough but at last,everything turns out just alright. Just like my friendship with him. It has rocky edges just like a rollercoaster but then it gradually works out which satisfies me. Im aiming to go to a school where students there concertrate more about work then play. I know its kinda lame for a rebellious attitude to think about that but im just sometimes really odd. Oddball. Thats me. =P Haha. Im still thinking of who the guy in my dream is but i just him really hunkish ! I might be dreaming only and besides it can't be that hes real. Its just a dream and dreams never come true unless you work for it.

I guess i will stop here for now. Im starving and im heading to the dinner room. Ciao !