Is full of obstacles

mission : hold back everything. including my tears
status: completed

i didnt know until today that having a crush is actually having a gift.
learning from others than life is fair and nobody is perfect.
holding back everything. including my tears.
thinking that you were never to be mine.
ran away and hide myself
tears falling down like rain
heart breaking into pieces.
life is just so unfair nowdays.
nothing works nowadays.
seeing a full moon just a few hours ago.
i wished and hoped that my wish would come true.
i just realise that we are just totally different in every single way.
just crying isnt the solution to these type of problems.
the solution is to just ignore about that and concertrate on something that is worth concertrating.
like example : you.
thinking about you makes me smile again.
makes my tears dried
and make me laugh.
=) having a crush might be a sad thing and a happy thing.
but its just something that everyone will have.
crushes had make you cried before,smile a lot of times and made you laughed.
they had made a difference in our lives.
crushes are maybe a childish a small matter
but until you have a crush on someone.
you will finally know what crush actually means.
caring and loving that person just isn't enough.

Now i would like to share with you a story that really touches my heart. =>
From the very Begining, the girl's family
objected strongly on her dating this guy.
Saying that it has got to do with family
background,& that the girl will have to suffer for the
rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel
very often. Though the girl love the guy
deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is
your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this
often cause the girl to be very upset. With that
& the family's pressure, the girl often vent her
anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in
silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally
graduated & decided to further his studies in
overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the
girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I
know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take
care of you for the rest of my life. As for your
family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you
marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the
family finally gave in & agreed to let them get
married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society,
whereas the guy was overseas, continuing
his studies. They sent their love through emails
& phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never
thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to
work, she was knocked down by a car that
lost control. When she woke up, she saw her
parents beside her bed. She realised that she was
badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted
to comfort her. But she realized that all that
could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She
has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her
brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening
to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming
out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence
cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied
her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to
be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the
phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it
rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not
wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a
letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait
any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In
return, the guy sent millions & millions of
reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl
could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping
that she could eventually forget everything &
be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign
language & started a new life. Telling herself
everyday that she must forget the guy. One
day, her friend came & told her that he's back.
She asked her friend not to let him know what
happened to her. Since then, there wasn't
anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with
an envelope, containing an invitation card for
the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When
she open the letter, she saw her name in it
instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's
going on, she saw the guy standing in front
of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent
a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let
you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let
me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You.
With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger.
The girl finally smiled.